God should be my dependence. It’s just hard not to rely on someone whom you trust for things that person commits to. So disappointment is natural when that person fails to follow through. I get upset with myself for turning my dependence away from God. I get frustrated with the person for not doing what was promised. And I get hurt because of the betrayal.
When the dust settles, I am left with an empty feeling in my heart that wants to tug me down. It happened yesterday, right in the middle of my bible study time. There was nothing that could be done, so I returned to my bible study. The first scripture I had to read was Colossians 3:2 “Set your mind on things above, not on things on the earth.”
It was if God was whispering gently to me “just breathe.” I knew I had to let it go, and I thought I did. But it found me this morning when I got up. The cares of this world – because in the end that is what it comes down to – tried to distract me from doing the things I know to be doing.
This morning I took a little time to look back over the virtues of the Proverbs 31 woman. Not once does the scripture mention that she is helped by her friends or family. It DOES say that she has the good provision of God. It DOES say that she relies and trusts in God. It DOES say that she meets the needs of her family, her neighbors and her handmaidens.
It also says in Proverbs that she is rooted in God’s word. I think that is the key to disappointment. Just like yesterday, when the let down happened, God’s Word was there to comfort me. This morning when the disappointment tried again to pull me down I was reminded not to be chocked by the cares of this world. It is the Word that is helping me find the joy I need to be all that I can be.
Ultimately people will disappoint – even those people that we KNEW we could trust and count on at all times. But God will NEVER leave me nor forsake me. He is my help, my strength, my strong tower, my comfort, my consistency. Just thinking these things makes the minor (or major) disappointments lose their grip and fall away.