My world flipped upside down on April 27th. It normally happens about when I think I have everything settled into a smooth track. Things fly up and knock me back or knock me down, but I confess this is the first time I have been flipped – end over end so much that I am not real sure right now where up even sits.
The posts here at the Peculiar Life have been quiet because my life has been peculiar. It started with a wind spinning behind our house (commonly referred to as a tornado) that threw giant hardwoods on top of our house. It moved on to no electricity, cable or phone service, and continues on with me living in a two bedroom trailer with my family until the repairs (or rebuilding) of our home can be completed.
Crazy touches the edge of the chaos but does not even come close to describing it all.
Balance seemed like a dream for many days. I put my hope in the adjuster, but he went away without showing me the other end of the path. I put my hope in the contractor, but he went away to a race weekend with his brother and left me to my outdoor newly constructed outdoor home – complete with sunroom, kitchen, dining room, pantry and living room (with fireplace). I put my hope in the church, but they only made a small dent in the trials and went away with me wondering if things would ever be normal again – even the normal that was our lives.
Sunrise one morning brought the hope that I had been missing.
Finding Hope AFTER the Storm
1. I will never leave you or forsake you – God never promised that the people around me would fix my situation but only that He would be there to make all things new.
2. I am your provision – the insurance company is not the one that gives me what I need and just remembering that He steers the hearts of kings made it all a little easier to “let go and let God.”
3. Surrender to me – the hurts and pains of the hopes crumpled under the feet of people have to be released to God in order to find the peace that comes from trusting in Him.
My heart knew where my hope could be found and it had to help my mind catch up. The sun filtering through the cracked and broken trees showed me that the darkness never prevails. I have to dig down through the rubble of my life sometimes to the true Foundation, but once I hit that Rock I can stand firm.