The morning started with me not wanting to start. I got up, but there was no joy involved in the getting up. Nothing had changed, so why bother. I understand that I got to this point after fourteen years of wrong choices, but common – it had been over FOURTEEN DAYS.
“Go,” I told myself and go I did. I pushed myself through my morning routine and felt better for the effort.
This was not the first time morning has broken . . . right over my head. The struggles of yesterday crowd their way into today and make me tired before I start. The squirrels scurry around screaming for my attention, and before I know it I am off following them down a rabbit hole (mixed metaphors made on purpose because that’s how messed up it all felt).
When the day starts off the rails, it tends to stay off the rails.
But not today.
Today, even though I had to fight past my “didn’t wants” just to get going, I did. Even though I wasn’t seeing change with the efforts I had been investing, I did. Even though it required determination to do for tomorrow, I did.
Today, I closed my eyes and my ears to the distractions and gave my full focus to God.
I started in His Word and let those words carry me over into prayers. I prayed Scripture, and I prayed through my Praying in Faith focuses. As I spoke the words, it dawned on me that the words I spoke were for me. As I speak His Words and put Him in remembrance of His words, then I remember. I become bolder and stronger in His truths.
Later, I was talking with my friend, Steve, about God’s provision and he offered the thought that God shows up just in the nick of time.
“I think we are the reason it happens in the nick of time,” I shared. “The provision is always there. We have to be willing to receive it. And until we have tried all the things we know to try and done all the things we can think to do we don’t turn to Him in honest submission. It’s only after we can’t that we turn to God and give it to Him. It’s not at the nick of time that it happens, but at the moment of Faith.”
What I didn’t say to Steve was there was a lot going on in my life, and this thought was for me in my journey. It combined with the clarity I had during my talk with God and reminded me that the difference isn’t in what I do but in Who I trust.
I’m still standing in the same location I was when I woke up this morning. Nothing dramatic has happened in the physicality of me, but things are different because of the focus change.
I have moved from thinking I have failed in what I am doing to knowing God excels me in all HIS doing.
It is all about God.
Where is your focus? What will it take for you to turn it all over and leave it in the hands of the One that created your beginning and end?
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