The only thing stand in my way is . . . ME. Even more powerful of a thought is that the place where I am is the exact place I have chosen to be. Even more powerful of a thought (or maybe it is more painful of a thought) is that the only way for me to get past where I am at this moment is for me to move.
I look around at my situation and I am not happy. I even find that at this moment I am not content – not because of God but because I know better and yet I chose worse.
My contentment will return when I make the better choices and keep making those better choices. Each choice will lead me out of this hole of regret that I have managed to dig and will get me back in line with the path that God has planned for me.
It begins with admitting that I have made the wrong choice, or at least not the best choice.
Admitting the Problem is the First Step to Change
1. I admit that if other people are not doing what they are supposed to do then I fall in line. If my family is letting the chores slip (and by family I mostly mean my husband) then it is easy to let my chores slip.
2. I admit that my wants often over-ride my needs. I may want that chocolate cake, but I may not even be hungry at the time. I just want what I want.
3. I admit that I want an easy button. I want someone to wave a magic wand. I want the path to be painless and overnight. I want it to happen to me and not because I invested my energy into making it happen.
4. I admit that I jumped before I could swim. I could doggie paddle and float, but I could NOT swim.
5. I admit that I have tried everything for a moment or two without being willing to invest the energy to measure the results of the trying.
6. I admit that I know what to do but that I do not do what I know and instead seek out a way that will not require so much doing from me.
7. I admit that I have given up and given in because I got tired of walking alone.
8. I admit that I struggle with your success even though I invested in that success.
9. I admit that making connections is easier than building relationships. Connections are the beginning – the hello of the journey. I can do that all day (and I have on many occasions). Relationships require sacrifice.
10. I admit that I do not want to sacrifice what I want even if it will get me to where I desire.
These are raw and honest truths about my journey because the only way to break through is to be raw and honest – with you but also with myself. I have to change if I want to see change and I have to be diligent in that change if I want to see lasting results.
And I do.
Where is am right now is NOT where I want to be anymore. I may have chosen this path but today I am throwing down the mask and confessing so that I can change my direction.
1. I will only get to my desired destination if I measure my walk against my own steps. It is not about what others do (or what they do not do) but about what I do with each step.
2. Needs must be first in line – I need to spend time with God so that must come first. Interestingly, I have discovered that when I get this need right then the rest are a little easier.
3. Getting past self is not always easy, but it is always simple. It may not be as simple as a magic wand, but it will be better and it will not expire at midnight.
4. I took the leap into my purpose before I even understood what my purpose was. I did not plan. I did not prepare. But that does not excuse me from learning from the miss-step and making that plan now.
5. Nothing works until it is given a chance to work. If I put medicine on my wound and it does not heal when I put it there at that very instant, then wiping it off will negate what it could have done. If I put a seed in the ground and it does not sprout up in that instant so I dig it up and throw it away, I will never reap a harvest. I have to keep on in the change and measure how that change is affecting my journey. Then and only then will I be in a position to discard it or to continue in it.
6. Knowing is only the beginning. I have to do what I know if I want to live in the blessings of that knowing.
7. I am not alone – no matter what the world may say. I have to remember what God told Elisha (about having 7000 prophets hidden away). The world wants me living in despair because I lose my strength there. I am not alone.
8. It hurts me to feel negative about the success of others because I know that my heart’s desire is that you succeed. But flesh tries to tell me that your success should have been my success. I KNOW BETTER! Your path is yours and my path is mine and we do not steal from each other along the way – as a matter of fact, your success only adds to and grows the success of those that you encounter.
9. I have the time and I have the place so investing the relationships is simply the choice of making you the priority. Want to chat?
10. I like being able to dictate each moment of my day – only I am beginning to understand that when I am walking where I am supposed to be I have way more freedom and control then when I am stuck in a hole.
Confession is good for the soul because it makes the way for correction and change. I refuse to stay in this hole of despair. With God’s help and with yours, I will make the choices that will create the path to change.